Random thoughts for the next steps.
Been way too long with too much happening but there was time and there is always time to get stuff done but Indidnt get everything done.
New releases in music and making videos and writing lyrics and reading emails about plans for more music have been a plenty. Lots of Sunshine and warm air mostly of which I dare not complain about. The new house has bathed in the stuff. I fear the cold months and must buy some new jumpers in preparation for cooler wetter weather. I don’t want to do this. This can wait.
Every training run has been tiresome and hard. I’m not very good at running in the heat but have been trying. My mind being a stubborn bastard and not giving in but also nagging me that the next 102 miles might prove too much. I’m worried about getting lost as have no idea of where I’m going and the thought of following acorns on signs doesn’t make me feel confident in any way. I will have a map but having experienced fog in the dark whilst running for over 15 hours things start to get a tad odd in the mind. I can still see the packs of black wild beasts with red eyes behind the wire fence up on the downs at 4.55 am pacing back and forth watching my every struggling step. I did finish through the pain and the recovery was long, the pain slowly eased over days, the muscles relaxed over weeks and the triumph will last for ever.
We are always being tested by oneself, always wanting to do better but somehow sometimes slipping from the solid block we are all trying to build.
I’m writing this on a freezing air conditioned train to the Capital. Heading to a movie premier called Anthropoid with the Kendal Mint Cake off the back of the song Life and Death. Never been to a film premier before but should be an entertaining evening with the people in entertainment, guess that includes me a bit right?
Friends have been like the sea of late. Some calm and tranquil where as others have been stormy and lost crashing about like angry lion waves. I’m scared of the ocean.
I must get hold of the plasterer, must get things finished as things are to begin from the very start again.
……….. Keep checking your screens……. As messages will be shown……Into your home.
I am Dave Pen